I should shoot myself for that, the subject that is. It has just occurred to me that I now have over 900 page views ^^ Which is a lot considering how suckish my work is xD But with my even suckishy luck, most of those are probably from people stumbling upon my page and saying "oh no, that's not what I wanted to see.."

Anyway, It's been a while since I've heard from anybody.. Anywhere.. People seem to have forgotten all about me it seems overnight.. Or maybe it's been happening for a while now, and I'm just now noticing that nobody wants me around anymore.. When my "friends" go somewhere (while I'm standing right next to them, but in my mind standing with them), not a "you coming?" or even a second look at me.. I'm just part of the background now, I guess.. Just another stranger lingering about, another faggot..

But on a more positive note, .. Who am I kidding? There's nothing positive about me right now.. I guess blowing $378 on clothes and cologne last night was rather.. Stimulating o.O I guess.. But other than that, I'm in the pits.. Now is not the time to have a part time job.. They've been cutting everybody's hours back, even hiring new people (wtf?). I guess even with income from outside sources it still kind of sucks.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going emo or anything, I'm just openly admitting that my life has been going down a steadily declining hill in the past few months or so.. I think the only positive thing that's happened to me is that I finally paid off my flatscreen and all that (very little) income goes straight to the bank before my debit card gets its filthy little numbers on it.

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Personal Thought: I doubt anybody is going to read this.. Or care.. But in the end, I'm sure it'll all pay off in the end.. What will pay off in the end, you may (not) be wondering? Well..



That's not important.